{We Need Kids}

Have you ever noticed when you buy a new car that all of a sudden you see your exact same car EVERYWHERE?

Yeah...me too.

On a somewhat, maybe not similar note...we've been trying to get pregnant for a year and a half and of course it seems like EVERYONE is pregnant and having babies...except us.

SAD FACE

Its in my head, isn't it? 

Logically I know not EVERYONE is pregnant. I really do.

About two months ago I had a dream about a dark haired baby boy that was given to us. 

Four days later we were approached by a friend who wondered if we'd be interested in adopting a baby that needed a home. We sure were...but she changed her mind. Good for her, sad for us.

After that we even attended an adoption orientation, and only a week later they went out of the adoption business...to focus on the counseling business. True story (thanks LDS Family Services).

I've been tested for potential issues and so far all is well. No concerns in that department.

We've tried IUI (artificial insemination). 

Ben had surgery to help increase our chances.

We've been/are part of an infertility study.

Our good friends have prayed and fasted with us.

We've prayed our little hearts out.

A friend offered his attorney services to help should we need one to complete an adoption.

In two weeks we will be meeting with a new clinic and a new doctor.

Will we try IUI again or are we going to jump to IVF (In Vitro Fertilization)? 

IVF will cost us close to $20,000, but we'll do it.

Lots and lots of decisions to be made, but we know we want to be parents of more than just a cat or two.

Our nephew, Baby Jonas

Ben is thinking about starting a "GoFundMe" account for us so our friends and family can contribute to our treatment. 

I feel really weird about that though.

Do you have any thoughts on that? Is that too weird? Have you heard of anyone doing that before?

I'm all over the place on this.

Lead me, guide me.