I should be doing homework, but after my Instagram break, I had to take a blog writing break as well. Leaving work early today and knowing I don't have to go back for a few days makes it feel like an extra special day. Even if I have school homework deadlines, I think I am allowed to goof around and procrastinate just a little bit.
We just got back from a trip last week to see Ben's family in Louisiana. I'm sure some of his highlights include all of the sporting games we took in at Auburn, Alabama but my favorite part of the trip was seeing our two nieces and our nephew. I can't imagine loving kids more than I love them. They are incredible little humans! Being a parent someday to my own kids just might knock my socks off I'm sure.
Speaking of kids, we started IVF last week. Its real folks! I've been taking 2 shots in the stomach every night for the last week and we just bumped it up to 3 shots last night. As you can imagine it is not a pleasant experience. Ben is great and gives me all of the injections. One-time I did a shot myself and then just sat in the bathroom and cried while feeling sorry for myself, so Ben is my permanent nurse now. We get it knocked out pretty quick, but one of those shots is a devil--a gaping hole to the depths of Hades. I can't figure out why it burns so badly and feels like I am being sliced open from the inside. Nice visual, eh? I dread 10pm every night right now.
So what is next? I've been going in to the clinic every other day for blood work and ultrasounds to keep an eye on the follicles that should be growing nice big fat eggs that we hope to retrieve either this Sunday or Monday. As of yesterday there were about 15 in various sizes. We won't know for sure how many are will be good enough quality and size to fertilize until probably Saturday.
If you think the shots sound fun, just wait until I have an update after going under sedation and having a needle all up in my business this weekend. I'm more grateful than nervous. I am really am not complaining about any of the steps of this process. This is such a blessing and a gift to be able to try and grow our family this way. I say that as I'm sitting here feeling puffy and bloated (this is a normal side effect). Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I can't wait to be gluttonous, happy and thankful for everything even more so than usual.
PS...I had to write a little bit about a little 15 year old angel that I got to meet up at the University of Utah Hospital Burn Unit back in July. Her name is Baylee Hoaldridge. She was a fighter and overcame so many odds after a tragic accident that left her 65% burned over her entire body. She endured 27 surgeries amongst other crazy trials that a human should not have to go through. I don't know what it was about her (seriously, she is a people magnet--even sedated), but every week I couldn't wait to bring our musicians in from Musicians in Motion and play for her. I wanted her to heal. I wanted her to forget about her pain for a little while. I wanted her to sing along and smile and dance. Every week I worried about her and prayed for her and just loved her from afar. I prepped every musician for Baylee, hoping it would be the week that she would be well enough for us to come in and play for her. Sadly that experience didn't get to happen, but I wished her every amazing Ed Sheeran song that she could've ever wanted. Unfortunately Sweet Bailey passed away on my birthday this year. Her courageous family knew the time had come to remove her from life support and let her return home to Heavenly Father. Last night we played the Burn Unit again. As soon as we walked in I looked down the hall to Baylee's room and saw the open door to the empty room. Yesterday also happened to be the day she had been laid to rest. There were a lot of emotions I felt being there and knowing her family was missing her so badly. I never want to forget her or her family or the thousands of people that were praying for her-check out her Facebook page (www.facebook.com/bebravebaylee). Last night our musicians, Nicole and Jordan played "You Are My Sunshine" for a few of the rooms last night. I got caught up in the music and lyrics and thought about how Baylee was just that--a piece of sunshine that we all wanted in our lives. There are going to be other Baylees in my life. I am trying very hard to not take so much for granted, to love more and to absolutely LIVE more...just like Baylee.
We just got back from a trip last week to see Ben's family in Louisiana. I'm sure some of his highlights include all of the sporting games we took in at Auburn, Alabama but my favorite part of the trip was seeing our two nieces and our nephew. I can't imagine loving kids more than I love them. They are incredible little humans! Being a parent someday to my own kids just might knock my socks off I'm sure.
Speaking of kids, we started IVF last week. Its real folks! I've been taking 2 shots in the stomach every night for the last week and we just bumped it up to 3 shots last night. As you can imagine it is not a pleasant experience. Ben is great and gives me all of the injections. One-time I did a shot myself and then just sat in the bathroom and cried while feeling sorry for myself, so Ben is my permanent nurse now. We get it knocked out pretty quick, but one of those shots is a devil--a gaping hole to the depths of Hades. I can't figure out why it burns so badly and feels like I am being sliced open from the inside. Nice visual, eh? I dread 10pm every night right now.
So what is next? I've been going in to the clinic every other day for blood work and ultrasounds to keep an eye on the follicles that should be growing nice big fat eggs that we hope to retrieve either this Sunday or Monday. As of yesterday there were about 15 in various sizes. We won't know for sure how many are will be good enough quality and size to fertilize until probably Saturday.
If you think the shots sound fun, just wait until I have an update after going under sedation and having a needle all up in my business this weekend. I'm more grateful than nervous. I am really am not complaining about any of the steps of this process. This is such a blessing and a gift to be able to try and grow our family this way. I say that as I'm sitting here feeling puffy and bloated (this is a normal side effect). Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I can't wait to be gluttonous, happy and thankful for everything even more so than usual.
PS...I had to write a little bit about a little 15 year old angel that I got to meet up at the University of Utah Hospital Burn Unit back in July. Her name is Baylee Hoaldridge. She was a fighter and overcame so many odds after a tragic accident that left her 65% burned over her entire body. She endured 27 surgeries amongst other crazy trials that a human should not have to go through. I don't know what it was about her (seriously, she is a people magnet--even sedated), but every week I couldn't wait to bring our musicians in from Musicians in Motion and play for her. I wanted her to heal. I wanted her to forget about her pain for a little while. I wanted her to sing along and smile and dance. Every week I worried about her and prayed for her and just loved her from afar. I prepped every musician for Baylee, hoping it would be the week that she would be well enough for us to come in and play for her. Sadly that experience didn't get to happen, but I wished her every amazing Ed Sheeran song that she could've ever wanted. Unfortunately Sweet Bailey passed away on my birthday this year. Her courageous family knew the time had come to remove her from life support and let her return home to Heavenly Father. Last night we played the Burn Unit again. As soon as we walked in I looked down the hall to Baylee's room and saw the open door to the empty room. Yesterday also happened to be the day she had been laid to rest. There were a lot of emotions I felt being there and knowing her family was missing her so badly. I never want to forget her or her family or the thousands of people that were praying for her-check out her Facebook page (www.facebook.com/bebravebaylee). Last night our musicians, Nicole and Jordan played "You Are My Sunshine" for a few of the rooms last night. I got caught up in the music and lyrics and thought about how Baylee was just that--a piece of sunshine that we all wanted in our lives. There are going to be other Baylees in my life. I am trying very hard to not take so much for granted, to love more and to absolutely LIVE more...just like Baylee.
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