{Thoughts on Christmas}

I began this post on Christmas and never finished it due to various things, mostly nausea I’m sure J . I thought about completely starting over, but decided to go ahead and post and then carry on from there.

I posted the good news yesterday on Christmas Eve, but I am only writing a little something today on Christmas.

I am still amazed at our perfectly wonderful news and how we found out on eve of the most beautiful day of the year, which is a day celebrated with anticipation and gratitude all over the world. The day of our Savior’s birth is the most recognized birthday and I can’t help but feel a connection to not only celebrating him and his birth and what that means to all of us, but the day we found out about our two little babes that will join our family and also change our personal lives forever. His birth means salvation for all, and that I might understand eternity better and love others better.

I knew we would get the opportunity to have children someday. Yes, there were times I doubted, and of course I wasn’t sure how it would happen, but those times of heartache, were necessary for me personally to know how much I wanted these children and to grow my faith and trust Him.

I’m guessing I will always go through times of necessary growth and the doubt may creep in here and there. I don’t know that I will always react in faith. I hope that I do, because as of right now, I KNOW that God is mindful of each of us. Our blessings don’t always come when we are ready for them, but He knows the best timing I think. I am not going to pretend the answer is as simple as I’ve just outlined, because it’s not. It takes faith on our part to keep moving forward. Faith is definitely an action and a choice and it can be very difficult. I wish I had more to say on that right now, but I don’t. That’s the lesson.

…and that’s where I left it. I’m not sure why I couldn’t get past that thought, but there you go!