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Becoming parents became very real today. We have a son and a daughter on the way and we can't stop smiling!

{18 Weeks}

I'm having trouble focusing at work today, but for two very good reasons :)

{15 Weeks}

We are approaching our 16 week mark and at this point I’m ready to celebrate absolutely anything that gets me away from the 1^st trimester nausea. Although I’ve been fortunate enough not to miss any work, I have been dealing  with incredible food aversions and heart burn. The nausea is mostly gone now, but the heartburn rages on.

On top of the symptoms, I started a new job at the end of January (I still work for the Church…just a different department). I wasn’t able to continue classes this semester due to all of pregnancy woes (I think Ben thought I was being dramatic, but he’s on board now and realizes that pregnancy is REALLY hard)! J

These babies are growing, as is my waistline, plus my heart—thank goodness! I love them and worry about them all of the time. We’ve been really lucky to see them on ultrasound at least 5 times now and each time I cry, almost like I am still in disbelief they are there, happy and thriving. But they are!

A few weeks ago I met with the team at Maternal Fetal Medicine at LDS Hospital. We did a lot of screenings and genetic testing since I am considered “high risk”. Again, absolutely healthy little babes! We got the blood test results a few days later and they confirmed one more time their good health and then asked me if I wanted to know any gender information…OF COURSE I DID!!! So…they gave me a little insight and I called Ben and we did Facetime so I could tell him and SEE his face, since we were both at work. He couldn’t decide if I should tell him, but he REALLY wanted me to. Once I did, we were both so darn happy and a little in shock. It was such a sweet moment for me to see his reaction J

I know you want me to reveal what we found out, but we don’t have both baby genders confirmed yet. What??? I know….haha. Hopefully we’ll find out SOON though! I promise I’ll post a lot quicker than I did last time. Until then, just know I’m fat, happy and healthy over here!

{Thoughts on Christmas}

I began this post on Christmas and never finished it due to various things, mostly nausea I’m sure J . I thought about completely starting over, but decided to go ahead and post and then carry on from there.

I posted the good news yesterday on Christmas Eve, but I am only writing a little something today on Christmas.

I am still amazed at our perfectly wonderful news and how we found out on eve of the most beautiful day of the year, which is a day celebrated with anticipation and gratitude all over the world. The day of our Savior’s birth is the most recognized birthday and I can’t help but feel a connection to not only celebrating him and his birth and what that means to all of us, but the day we found out about our two little babes that will join our family and also change our personal lives forever. His birth means salvation for all, and that I might understand eternity better and love others better.

I knew we would get the opportunity to have children someday. Yes, there were times I doubted, and of course I wasn’t sure how it would happen, but those times of heartache, were necessary for me personally to know how much I wanted these children and to grow my faith and trust Him.

I’m guessing I will always go through times of necessary growth and the doubt may creep in here and there. I don’t know that I will always react in faith. I hope that I do, because as of right now, I KNOW that God is mindful of each of us. Our blessings don’t always come when we are ready for them, but He knows the best timing I think. I am not going to pretend the answer is as simple as I’ve just outlined, because it’s not. It takes faith on our part to keep moving forward. Faith is definitely an action and a choice and it can be very difficult. I wish I had more to say on that right now, but I don’t. That’s the lesson.

…and that’s where I left it. I’m not sure why I couldn’t get past that thought, but there you go!